Cravings so hard It turns into desperate need Summer heat Breathing is labored Sad hands clean Smoke stained windows Tired eyes read empty words Angry ears want you to shut the fuck up Fingers fidget Itching to sew your mouth into silence heart dreams nightmares eat through the spirit with its acid torture Please smile, they say So I take the pills Swallow the pain

Sometimes the dildo is not what I want. Sigh.

Fences
Orchards of raspberry wine
Following my deepest
Ambitions I cannot find
My beautiful morning
Expectations of myself
I cannot complete
The maze within
Will not stop.

An image
Fantasy within my skull
A strife of self expression
A grasp at human connection
Unworded communication
A silent representation
Of everything I am not.
Did you catch the thread
I didn't bare to wear in public
For shame my head
May be blamed for having
Unworldly thoughts
....it goes on. But I've shared enough I think.