Sorry iv been away dealing with... life?

Its been months... this is coming from me, right now and whats going on. My boyfriend has not had sex with me in months and acts like hes not attracted to me anymore. Im not sure if its because i can only do anal or if me not being able to have vaginal sex but my sexual struggles are really needing help... i need help. Night after night of going to crying quietly alone in bed knowing nothing will happen. I almost wonder if the scars down there from surgery or when my ex me but im sad and lonely and have brought it up to him multiple times and even gone as far as begging with no success. Iv been loyal to him and have never cheated nor plan to so this puts me in a very difficult situation in life. This is me opening up knowing im broken and probably not happy?... Thanks to everyone who is supportive of me and i love you all!

Definitely looking for a dom if not a femdom would be interesting. Im still newer to this stuff and shy but dont let that hold you back!

Heya boys! Im back!

Hey guys! Thea here with another erotic hot topic for ya! Id rather not say if this did happen so il leave it at that. enjoy!

This is my first time uploading to this so here goes! Im a smaller girl with a weird fantasy thats been consuming me inside and making me go wild. So! Fair warning to all that this is really extreme and pretty fucked up from my prospective so this is your warning and if this wasnt a big enough warning your already on pulsevault so ya lol Please keep in mind this is a FANTASY of MINE and im not wishing this upon anybody else but myself so please sit back, grab a glass of wine or whatever you prefer and get comfy because its going to get pretty heated and dangerous!
Hello, my name is Thea and im a little over my 18th birthday and have been having really wild dreams during the day and night that have almost been haunting me. For the past couple months or so me and my boyfriend have not had sex in beyond months and pleasing myself can only go so well than i want more and thats where i am now and when things got a little more complicated for me. You see iv been getting these dreams where il almost wake up tied up to a bed with a man inside my mouth as im crying in shock as another man is inside my ass. Just the feeling of choking on a man thats not my boyfriend and someone else deep inside of my butt makes me want to squirm in pleasure. I cant imagine being by someone let alone multiple men again and not have a choice, its crippling and consuming to someone and last time i was so scared i couldnt move or do anything and it went for not just hours but days! It gets cold and i get goosebumps immediately and start to shake and become terrified of being and used but yet this keeps flooding my dreams and il sweat and get teary eyed and want to just get in bed and cuddle my boyfriend and feel safe but it doesnt happen because im wanting to have sex so badly! We never have sex because im so tiny he barely can get inside my butt when we did have sex.
So here i am with these images and thoughts running through my head wildly i can be in the shower or doing my hair and il just stop and feel myself look down and loose control and almost get sucked into a blackhole of these nightmarish fantasies. The crazy part is they get more and more extreme the longer im waiting and its scaring me beyond what im able to deal with and all this would simply go away probably if he would fuck me