After the thread of comments I left on my old video, I was ready to off myself in a month's time. I had a note drafted, I was giving some of my things away and leaving the rest in an unofficial will of sorts. I felt so alone and alienated for not being able to continue my transition, among other stressors in my life. If it wasn't for the kindness of strangers on a porn site of all places and the help of my family, I may have been long gone before I could post this. I will be able to continue transitioning again in a few months, I have help, I have support, and I have a renewed perspective. I don't need anyone's approval to define my value or validity of my gender. To every single person that knows how cruel and unforgiving dysphoria is, I'm so sorry you can understand, but I am also here to let you know that you're not alone. I was at my lowest point, but I'm climbing back up. You can too. If you're someone like me who thought death was the only way out of misgendering, there is always another way. You will always have someone. You have me. I love all of my trans , and siblings. You're incredibly important, and I thank you for being the reason I'm still here today.

I may never use this account. I'm not confident in my body, I don't want to fall back into needing approval from other people. I'm an ugly freak that can't afford HRT and only had six months of blissful testosterone shots before everything fell apart financially. I only made this to respond to a video I wish I never posted on here. I'm not a girl.